hard love

It was hard love, every step of the way,
Hard to be so close to you, so hard to turn away,
and when all the stars and sentimental songs dissolved today,
There was nothing left to sing about but hard love.
So I loved you for your courage and your gentle sense of shame,
and I loved you for your laughter and your language and your name,
and I knew it was impossible, but I loved you just the same,
Though the only love I gave to you was hard love.
So I'll tell you that I love you even though I'm far away,
And I'll tell you how you cange me as I live from day to day,
How you help me to accept myself and I won't forget to say,
Love is never wasted, even when its hard love.
Yes its hard love, but its love all the same,
Not the stuff of fantasy but more than just a game.
And the only kind of miracle that's worthy of the name,
For the love that heals our lives is mostly hard love.

what if?

HOPE

lovey dovey kiss kiss!

do you feel it? its coming back! i feel it!

remember when i told you,
that i always find something
new to love about you everyday?

i wasn't lying then, and i'm not lying now.

although we're in the process of
working things out i know that
things will come along quite well
because

you are my present and my future && my past will never come back

you are what i want

you are what i need

you're my everything and only thing

you are important my number one to worry about

nothing comes close to you

everything i've wished and hoped for is basically with you

i'm set for life

i have my support to help me survive in this life

thank you for supporting me with anything

i love you and i always will

if we ever break up for dumb reasons just remember i'll always want you back

I we can do this

happiness?

i don't know what i should be feeling right now. i feel amazingly happy but yet i'm still crying. i wonder how we would be life if i didn't break up with you and just simply waited for things to clear up? i love you with all my heart, i can't get you out of my head, you're all i think about and i wonder if you still think about us. i've been trying so hard to prove to you that i can do this, that i can bring us back on a positive note -- not by using old past memories or making you feel bad for me, but to show you the me that you fell in love with, the guy you said this to,

e (1:15:50 AM): I loooove you. =)

e (1:16:26 AM): don't worrry I won't go nowhere. I'll stay here with you forever.

i miss you saying that kind of stuff to me and actually meaning it. if we do get back together, i want to strengthen our relationships from any hardship -- so if anything comes our way, we can flick it away without any worries or doubts.

i feel like things are finally clearing up
with us and we're almost at the finish line
but i want to cross it together no matter what

i know we talked about meeting
at the end but how about we get there
with each other

"there are no limits"