dying

i feel like crying my eyes out.

why isn't anything coming out?

headstrong

sometimes things come to an unfortunate end.

my head hurts.
my body hurts.
my eyes are sore.
my breathes are short.
my sense of touch is fading.
my temper is raging.
my heart hurts.

notthebestthingrightnow.

picture perfect?

to have a picture perfect, what is needed? absolute keen lighting? what about scenery? a lot is needed to have a perfect picture.



if, a picture is worth a thousand words, then how many can a video hold?





in old times, painters took long hard looks and visualized their portraits before to give them a hint of what they will do. they struggle in spots but if they just closed their eyes, think hard enough, and remember ever detail needed to complete the masterpiece.



don't forget, that masterpiece needs time to be finished correctly, so every detail is right and in its position. time is key to finish something great.

miserable

fuck.

hard love

It was hard love, every step of the way,
Hard to be so close to you, so hard to turn away,
and when all the stars and sentimental songs dissolved today,
There was nothing left to sing about but hard love.
So I loved you for your courage and your gentle sense of shame,
and I loved you for your laughter and your language and your name,
and I knew it was impossible, but I loved you just the same,
Though the only love I gave to you was hard love.
So I'll tell you that I love you even though I'm far away,
And I'll tell you how you cange me as I live from day to day,
How you help me to accept myself and I won't forget to say,
Love is never wasted, even when its hard love.
Yes its hard love, but its love all the same,
Not the stuff of fantasy but more than just a game.
And the only kind of miracle that's worthy of the name,
For the love that heals our lives is mostly hard love.

what if?

HOPE

lovey dovey kiss kiss!

do you feel it? its coming back! i feel it!

remember when i told you,
that i always find something
new to love about you everyday?

i wasn't lying then, and i'm not lying now.

although we're in the process of
working things out i know that
things will come along quite well
because

you are my present and my future && my past will never come back

you are what i want

you are what i need

you're my everything and only thing

you are important my number one to worry about

nothing comes close to you

everything i've wished and hoped for is basically with you

i'm set for life

i have my support to help me survive in this life

thank you for supporting me with anything

i love you and i always will

if we ever break up for dumb reasons just remember i'll always want you back

I we can do this